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That skirt.

Posted in Uncategorized by genderqueer2genderqueer on August 9, 2010

knee length, cute, black, wool, buinesswear, political and mental battle ground.

What does it mean to wear a skirt, one I have worn many times before one which I often wore when I was doing office work, out while out as trans.

Am I not trans enough, am I letting other trans people down, given that I am passing as cis and enjoying it?

By the end of the night, I knew I was doing the right thing, I had had fun, but god it was nice to rip it all off.

But then, what the fuck do I mean by genderqueer, I feel like their is a whole lot of pressure to act like non binary id’s are some cute name for binary id’s like I am some trans man who is cool with the lingo.

I feel a huge pressure to disown female parts of me, a trans female friend commented recently we I talked about this that it had taken her years to be ok with the idea dressing butch, and that she didn’t know how I could do it. I totally understand her point of view, but for me, their isn’t safety or freedom from dysmorphia in presenting as purely male, because it isn’t me.

Gender Fucking Queer In particular for me I am in important and significant ways female, or femme or something.
Now if only I could convince myself that I wasn’t less real, less truly trans because of it.

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  1. Wookie said, on August 13, 2010 at 6:35 am

    I wish I had something more poignant to add than, I can relate. But yeah.

  2. genderqueer2genderqueer said, on August 17, 2010 at 11:26 pm

    Thanks


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